Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Faith



Voy a aprovechar que husband se ha ido hoy de viaje, por lo que el bochorno que sentirá al leer mis palabras quedará levemente aplazado, para hacerle un pequeño homenaje. Todo empieza por decir que he tenido una primavera asquerosa. Me he dejado llevar hasta lugares de mi alma que no reconocía en mí. Lugares tristes e insatisfechos. Al igual que hace unos años él puso en mis manos unos rotuladores y unos cuadernos y me insufló el ánimo de volver a garabatear y reencontrarme, del mismo modo, me ha dado las herramientas para sortear el bache. Y entre otras, una de estas herramientas es, sin ninguna duda, su fe en mi creatividad. Tengo un nuevo proyecto que es probable que me lleve meses desarrollar, por lo que, conociéndome, quizá acabe en algun cajón olvidado. Pero al menos habrá servido para abrir una nueva puerta y volver a mirarme contenta en el espejo.
Feliz martes.

Seeing that husband is gone on a short trip and I can therefore delay his probable embarrassment when he reads this, I'm going to pay tribute to him today. I'd better begin saying how awfully down I have been feeling this spring. I've entered places in my soul I didn't know. Sad and unsatisfied places. And then, as he did a couple of years ago when he put some brand new pens and sketchbooks in my hands and force me to meet my inner self again, he's given me again the tools and reasons to negotiate this bad patch. Among these tools is undoubtlessly his faith in my creativity. I have a new project in mind that it could take months to carry out. If you know me well then you know this could be enough reason to end up stuck in a drawer, but just the same. It's all worthy. I've opened a new door and I look at my reflection happily.
Happy Tuesday.

Today's music:
Soundtrack of our lives


30 comments:

Inés said...

!Qué bonito Esti!. Tener alguien que te acerque el bisturí, sin antes pedírselo, en el quirófano éste de la vida.Un buen cómplice con el que viajar. Pero los cajones de los que hablas blíndalos bien para que podamos compartir tus creatures gracias a la intervención providencial de Hus Band. Feliz martes as well.

Jorge said...

No es por hacer corporativismo masculino pero qué menos que echar unas flores de vez en cuando al "man behind the scenes". Lo que viniendo de alguien tan poco dado a las muestras públicas de cariño adquiere un doble valor.

Eso sí, el husband no va a saber donde meterse...

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jane said...

here´s to a new journey. meet you at the end. besos.

esther said...

me alegra que te sientas apoyada por alguien que te quiere, que sepa darte un empujoncito y animarte y levantarte hasta que veas las nubes

ibb said...

Siempre que se cierra una puerta se habre una ventana. Simplemente hay que seguir con fe la luz que te muestra el camino. Tu tienes suerte de que alguien te sujete de la mano en el viaje.
Los proyectos son largos caminos con cuestas, piedras, y zonas de sombras. Pero también tienen fotos llenas de luz como las que cuelgas. Son parte del camino.

La Ballena Elena said...

Que bien tener a alguien así al lado.
You lucky wife !

Hatüey said...

Si tienes las herramientas, ya volverás a cantar como ayer.

If you have the tools, you will be singing just like yesterday.

Saludos en lo que busco paletas de colores,

depeapa said...

Gracias a husband!
Es una delicia admirar tu talento y sensibilidad.
Sabes sacar el lado poético de las cosas...

Aran said...

jo esti, que homenaje mas bonito y es que tener un apoyo asi es indispensable en la vida. me alegro de que el bache haya pasado y te deseo lo mejor con este proyecto nuevo que seguro que sale.

husband- muy bien eh? como dicen unos amigos mios... "mucha clase".

mosus esti.

Alice said...

Hace solo unos dias descubrí tu blog, y lo que me “atrapó” fué justamente la sincera humanidad que se lee y ve, como tus palabras de hoy. Seguí tu proceso creativo desde los primeros post , por lo que creo que tu gran talento es la capacidad de volcar los sentimientos y emociones, oscuros y luminosos, en las obras que compartes en este espacio. Ojalá nos muestres pedacitos del camino de esta nueva etapa, como hiciste antes. (Merecido homenaje al husband!!!)

Vir said...

Bueeno, será como mucho un bochorno de esos gustosillos... está bien que husband sea así. Animo con la primavera y el nuevo proyecto!

marie-louise said...

Just a little Hello, and Happy Tuesday to you too!

And these lovely and beautiful clouds!!!!!

mansuetude said...

love the new header, so clean! and your photo, so much sky, such little shadows of "people"

what words, esti. So lovely and true. Go for it! With all your heart!

Anairam said...

Husbands like these are to be treasured, aren't they? A new project is a great way to feel positive about your creativity again - even if it comes to "nothing" or ends up in a different place than the one you imagined. (PS I know one can't avoid the bad patches, but please take it from one of your fans - you are wonderfully talented! Each one of your pictures gives me immense pleasure and joy!)

husband said...

siento no haberme dado cuenta de que estabas tan down últimamente. Ánimo con tu nueva pantalla del viedojuego. Seguro que lo disfrutamos.
No os creais esta versión idealizada del husband (aunque a mi ego le mola)


I´m sorry for not noticing you were so down lately. Cheer up with your new project. We´ll enjoy it for sure.
Don´t believe this idealized version of husband (although my ego says it´s cool)

Today´s music: Always look at the bright side of life (O.S.T.: the life of Brian)

Veja cecilia said...

what nice words. To think and talk is important. I also had some real bad downs this spring, and last spring. i think stress does it to me. still there is people helping and draging you out of the dark, and it´s great to have them.
love soundtrack of our lives.

aimee said...

first this made me sad, then it made me smile. you and your husband sound like a great team. it's a wonderful thing to have a mate who believes endlessly in you and your creativity. i'm lucky to have one, too. whenever i hit emotional lows, he's there waiting to push me back up. don't know what i would do without him!

MODsquad said...

Those are beautiful words. I wish you all the best during this journey. Personally, I think your drawings are amazing! You must have a beautiful soul to produce such work.

...Lisa

Uschi said...

Esti hello!!
I know this so well...these downs...the dark sides as you say...
Life has to be balanced out, I think, and if you wouldn't have these creative periods versus dark periods you would be...perhaps...a bit more...numb??
Hurray to your husband and everybody/everything that brings sunshine!

Aris said...

Esti, I can totally relate. I think making work that is deeply personal is so rewarding, but difficult. You use all of yourself and your life: the beautiful and the painful, you share it all and then in the end it stares back at you-hopefully a little bit more resolved but it's there. And then sometimes you question all of it. I do the same and am fortunate to have a husband and best friend who knows me and helps me through. Looking at him and my sweets reminds me of all that is good! Wishing you clarity in your work and happiness inside.
Hugs.

Miss Rosenthal said...

Y yo no te había notado de bajón! qué bien disimulas o que despistada soy! No te pongas triste, vale??? Tienes a mil personas por las que animarte pero si puedo apuntarme, hazlo también por mí.
Un beso y animo

ambika said...

I'm sorry you've been down and glad you have such a great, supportive partner to help you through it.

Alexandra Hedberg said...

To have someone so supportive when your are down is a treasure.

When both are depressed and down at the same time it gets tough - one person has to take the initiative to be the one inspiring the other. Or both will sink so deep...

But now you are swimming upwards, right? Soon you will surface.

Alexandra Hedberg said...

this also makes me think how right I might (?) have been when I've seen something dark in many of your images....

Katrina said...

aw, esti. what a beautiful post. thanks for sharing it.

Bonbon Oiseau said...

oh esti...i know too well how you feel..what a beautiful and honest post,.thank you...and what a wonderful husband as well....oxo deb

●• Tiny Red said...

que bonito, esti!!! el aor es una cosa magica...
tambien soy afortunda de tener un husband asi tan bueno!

FruensWerk2 said...

I just like you...nice nice words as always Esti...Look up and you will find..........hug ;)

Purificación said...

Enhorabuena por haber encontrado un buen compañero de viaje!! Espero que tú creas en él lo mismo que él en tí y que esa fuerza se la trasmitais a vuestra familia.

Buen viaje hacia el verano!