Friday, December 26, 2008

On Christmas Day



No conozco una navidad en la que no nos hayamos reunido toda la familia, más de cuarenta personas, alrededor de mi amama.
Me siento bien entre los míos.
Me siento bien cuando nos juntamos todos y somos un mar de sonrisas.
Me siento bien ante las miradas comprensivas, las palabras bienintencionadas y los chismes de andar por casa.
Me siento bien viendo a los niños construir sus propios vínculos, acomodándose en su lugar en la familia.
Disfruto observando cómo los niños van mostrando su personalidad y la imágen que de cada uno de ellos, su molde, se va formando en nuestros pensamientos. La tímida, la imaginativa, la hippie, el buenazo, la atrevida, la bailarina...
Me miro mi propio molde, el molde de cómo supuestamente soy, y me siento un poquito decepcionada. ¿Cómo es posible que conociéndonos tanto, nos conozcamos tan a medias?
Tendremos que rozarnos más.
Unai, que tengas una feliz navidad. Nos acordamos de tí.

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I don't know a Christmas Day of not gathering the whole family, over forty people, around my grandmother.
I feel fine among my people.
I feel fine when we meet and we are a sea of smiles.
I feel fine before understanding stares, wellintentioned words and home gossip.
I feel fine looking at the children building their own links, getting comfortable in their place in the family.
I enjoy looking at how kids show their personality and how we also build their image in our thoughts, their mold, their cast. The shy kid, the daring kid, the goodhearted one, the hippie girl, the dancer...
I look at my own mold, the way I'm suppossed to be, and I feel a little dissapointed. How is it possible that knowing each other so much, we half know each other?
We'll have to meet and rub each other a little more often...
Unai, have a happy christmas at sea. We miss you.

16 comments:

Kirti said...

I love my family, small and far flung as it may be, but still if I were in my twenties again I'd be having many many babies to create something of what you have just described! How wonderful!Many blessings to you all.xx

Eleanor said...

Your honesty thrills me, as always.

I sat on the beach today and looked at a couple of sailboats and I thought about your posts about Unai!!

María said...

Jo, 40 personas ¡¡qué gozada!!
Un besote

mansuetude said...

yes! to all of it.
beautifully written.

Blessings of Christmas to you and your darlings.

karin said...

Wow, what a big family! Have beautiful days with yours and a beautiful 2009.

Lucía said...

Felices fiestas. Un abrazo.

Christine said...

A very warm and hearty post. I'm also affected by your honesty.

... said...

Merry christmas to you ****** Beautiful projects and a lot of hapinness for 2009 ****

famapa said...

merry xmas esti + family!

andrea tachezy said...

Merry Christmas!

Alexandra Hedberg said...

looks like a lovely Christmas! we were just three ... and all of us coughing or with fever. But it was a merry Christmas anyway...

sorry you didn't get any wishes from me .... but i was just not feeling well enough

sarajo f said...

buenas fiestas a tu (or ti?) y como siempre, escrito tan maravillosamente...espero que el ano nuevo traiga fluir creativo del rio.. what i mean is a creative river flowing! muchas gracias por sus visita y sus comentarios en el ano...

●• Tiny Red said...

feliz navidad Esti. muy linda tus imagenes y descripcion de los momentos con tu familia :)

Ciara said...

It's what I love most about Christmas Esti, the gathering of family. Though mine is not quite so big as yours, it was at one point when we were all little and my grandmother was still alive. And it will be again as the rest of my siblings start to (finally!) reproduce!

Looks like you had a lovely time. Merriest blessings to you and yours!

Aran said...

me alegro de que hayais tenido una feliz navidad esti, a pesar de que Unai este lejos. Un beso super grande y que el anno nuevo venga lleno de todas esas cosas que siempre pedimos.

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