And stare at the ceiling

He dormido fatal. El perro de los vecinos no paraba de llorar y llamar. Yo soñaba que la garganta se me iba cerrando y me costaba respirar. El despertador no ha sonado, aunque no ha hecho falta. Mis hijas se han levantado a la contra, negandose a vestirse, negandose a desayunar... La Princesa Nocilla quería ir disfrazada al cole y la Princesa Mermelada ha derramado la leche en el mantel... Y aunque sabes que son niños, que se comportan como tales, te diriges a ellos como adultos, buscando respuestas de adultos... ¿No os dais cuenta de que vamos a llegar tarde? Pues no, no se dan cuenta...

Y luego amerizo en el trabajo, busco el silencio alrededor, me gustaría quedarme ensimismada mirando al techo, como hacen mis hijas. Mirar al techo.

Lo siento, es Halloween, y sólo quiero que pase este día, porque a primera hora estoy demasiado cansada, porque aunque dibujar me calmaría y probablemente cambiaría mi humor, no puedo hacerlo; porque mañana podré quedarme en la cama durmiendo o mirando al techo.

He dormido fatal... y ahora soy yo la quejica.

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I haven't slept well. A neighbour dog didn't stop whining all night long. I was dreaming my throat was narrowing and I couldn't breathe well. The alarm clock didn't work this morning, but it wasn't necessary. My daughters have woken up totally against me, refusing to get dressed or have breakfast... Princess Nutella wanted to wear a Halloween costume to school and Princess Marmalade spilled her mug of milk on the tablecloth... And although you know they're just kids, they behave like kids, sometimes you desperately address them as if they were adults, looking for an adult response... Don't you realize you are going to be late? Well, no, they don't realize at all...

Then I land at work, looking for silence around me. I'd love to just stay still staring at the ceiling, as my daughters do quite easily. Staring at the ceiling.

Sorry, I know it's Halloween, and I only want this day to pass, because this early I'm too tired, because even if i know that drawing would soothe me and change my mood, I can't do it right now; I want this day to pass because tomorrow I could sleep in or stare at the ceiling from bed.

I haven't slept well... and now I'm the one whining...

Today's Music:

The Dream Syndicate

There is a place you might wanna go

it's right up my street

you might look and see the light shining

someone you might like to meet

He said "let's go for a ride"says it all the time

you know you got a lot to live for

and you're gonna be mine

You shouldn't believe the things you reed in papers

they can't come true

I don't believe the things that you see on TV

they'll never happen to you

2 steps forward

don't say I didn't warn you

2 steps forward

_ Halloween